Even though I know, it's an earthly sin.
I'm thinking how to end it how I should go?
That old feelings back of I told you so.
I felt a failure before I began to live,
I'm too tired now. I have nothing to give.
Im a guest on earth, should count my blessings instead of woe.
I feel it's my time. I'm broken & I want to go.
You're supposed to keep on going, no matter how tough life gets,
The amount if times I've been in this place... full of many regrets.
I know there are so many worse off than me
I'm alive I should be grateful but I wish the blind could see.
I'm surrounded by people but always alone,
Whilst I'm in my tunnel zone.
Trauma is not an illness make no mistake,
It's a way of life of where I'll never awake.
I want to shut it down make it go away,
In my head all those memories stay!
I want to detach & help it forget,
The people around me won't let me go yet.