This has had to be one of the toughest months of my life so far. It's taken it's toll on me as living wiht a double edged sword. I have no health which has left me incapacitated & i would wish that on no one as my mind is starting to drift back to the past. I am awaiting an operation i had 13 years ago for adhesions and intestinal problems. I want the operation over and done with now as if i get another 13 years pain free i will be delighted. I would like a year with no problems at all and people that know me will know it's something i have never had, I don't want pity, i want life. There are some people in life that get it all thrown at them and i just happen to be one of those people. I am also looking for an honest solicitor so if anyone knows of one who can take my case to court please let me know. I have been told there are other avenues but i get fed up listening to pipe dreams. As i go along i will share so much more of my story. I have another few radio interviews lined up so i shall add them to this site. There are so many survivors out there with the same story, so i'm not a small minority as... the more i talk about my case, the more people i come across who's lives have a similar vein and it's unjustified Why hasn't there been changes made who are we looking out for here it's certainly not the victim as i for one have more than enough evidence to get to court. I have been told i have overwhelming evidence. My social work files are damnding evidence but my case is cisted which means they have the power to hit the pause button on my life again. No closure... am is it going to cost too much to right a wrong. It all lays at the feet of an archaic law which can be changed by politicians it really doesn't need tax payers money and courts. We are trying our best to make this a better world for children of the future. I was told by so many people to sweep it under the carpet and leave the past in the past... move on with your future. How many generations has that been said to before me. I myself have grandchildren now and i would be appalled if any adult told them to keep quiet about such a thing no adult has the right to do that to a child ever no mattter what the excuse as you scar them for life. Children's innocence shoulld be protected by adults not broken by them. My daughter is now 25 and do you know i can only ever recall striking her once... once and I blame myself for that, I as an adult should have known better and used my life experiences and spoke to her about where she had let me down. Never use power over a child or another fellow human in any shape or form to make them do what you want. Everyone has a free will and should be allowed to express it. Please be kind to one another and if you have nothing nice to say leave in silence, on that note goodbye for now love liz x
I as a survivor know that the festive season along with any time of celebration, reaches into that dark hole in your heart, i call it that as i have no name for it. The place no one can reach the hurt broken space. You will have moments of weakness as i do i cry some get cross but let it go it will pass i promise. It will only make you stronger. You will get up another day & see the beauty in it. I promise it does get better ,so please please keep going, as we are all in this together. Leave a message & i will get back to you, as any comment on here comes to me. i try to answer all of them as best i can but if it's a crisis moment... please use the contacts section as i am no therapist, i am only a survivor reaching out ,to give you places to turn in your times of struggles as when i had mines i felt so alone. I have found a lot of lovely people online, who will not abuse your TRUST, I have put it in capitals as it's a very big word for me as i have lost mines for now.. I myself find it very difficult to put my trust in another human now as have had it shattered but please never ever give up as we shall find a way together to fix it again.
love liz x